banded life: September 2009

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

my bittersweet moment

Well, so much has gone on and so many things going on in my head. I wished I had time to get on here each time I had a thought that I wanted to share. Because then I get on here and forget what I was going to say?
But this I remember. I have had a couple of hard days.... bad news - kids making bad choices. So last night after receiving some of this news, hubby and I went to the grocery store. I walked by the donuts... oh I wanted one of those white iced rings!! Then I thought- no ice cream will satisfy this upset better Then I thought BOTH will help me feel better!! THEN I thought- NO WAY... Now is the time to break some bad habits. I am NOT going to eat my feelings away. I am going to do something different. I got home, put on my exercise clothes, and I went for a walk. I put on my head phones, turned the music up and I walked. and walked and walked. and cried and cried and cried..... by the time I got done walking I had walked 4.7 miles.... I was pretty proud of myself for the choices I made. OK- let me say this... I did buy a pb cup package and I ate one and hubby ate the other. I was so pleased with my decisions!! Today I weighed in and I lost 4 pounds. YIPPEEE. So the work I put in this week was successful. I am so thankful. I followed my lapband rules, got away from sweets and bread, and I exercised. I feel pretty good. so the bitter part was the bad news I got and the feelings I had.... the sweet part is my choices as to how to handle it.

I am going to a gastric band summit in November. I am so excited. I can't wait. There is so much potential for good learning in this summit based on the titles. I hope it proves to be a good learning experience. I think it will. I am going completely alone... so here is my chance to really be out of my comfort zone!!! I am planning on going swimming, eating, and to a movie alone. totally out of my comfort zone. I intend to make a friend at the conference. perhaps one that wants to keep in touch after the fact. perhaps just one to talk to while we are there. I am excited. I can't wait.

until I blog again.....

A Return to Love by Marianne Williamson

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”